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Sep. 9th, 2003 07:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hyurigee, I actually got something right. I told her enough to make her acknowledge that I really do have problems (and shut up, glory be!), but not so much that she's calling people to get me locked up because I'm dangerous to myself. which, since I'm being honest with myself, I really am at the moment.
took a hike out to the hills north of our house this afternoon with the dual intentions of burning some of my emotions off and, if I still felt the same when I got there, slicing myself open. I do that every so often; according to the "normal" pattern, I was actually quite overdue. obviously, I was successful in the former objective.
oh, gee, she just went to bed. did she tell me that she understood, or something encouraging, or helpful, or whatever? nooooo! "make sure you get the dishes before your dad gets up."
very often I wonder why I even bother.
took a hike out to the hills north of our house this afternoon with the dual intentions of burning some of my emotions off and, if I still felt the same when I got there, slicing myself open. I do that every so often; according to the "normal" pattern, I was actually quite overdue. obviously, I was successful in the former objective.
oh, gee, she just went to bed. did she tell me that she understood, or something encouraging, or helpful, or whatever? nooooo! "make sure you get the dishes before your dad gets up."
very often I wonder why I even bother.
