hyuri | a dose of “drama” (Reply)

kinda dizzy, kinda tired, apparently a bit more of both than I think because I'm making all kinds of typos, and I have some suspicions about the condition of that mayonnaise. and why hasn't Squeenix billed me like they've been telling me they will (on 07/07/2004) for the past couple of weeks?

I should sleep, I really should. but I'm having a lot of trouble convincing myself to do things that I should. I should go to bed. I should do laundry. I should stop cutting myself. I should go apply for jobs at more places. I should stop subsisting on a diet of mostly soda. I should start taking care of my body.

should should should. and I never do. I know what I need to do, I even know how to do it. I am such a fucking waste of skin.

and don't you dare tell me I'm not a waste. I may be such a great person, or able to do certain things, but I don't do anything. that's what makes me a waste, and I will be until and unless I finally start doing something.

yeah. I'll feel better tomorrow.

I think I'd be a lot more likely to go cruising around at night if I had a car with a CD player. it's probably better that I don't, actually.