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[hyuri]

well, my putative father has once more decided that I am not permitted to speak when he decides I mayn't, whether he chooses to inform me or not; that he may gratuitously insult me, while I am expected to accept them as my just due; that his being right, without disagreement, is worth physically assaulting me; that my mother defending me by forcing herself between us is unshakable proof that she doesn't love him, doesn't care about his views, and wants a divorce so she can just fuck around; and that my being his child, whom he defends and supports, is only true when I kowtow to his every whim.

so much for the "man" who raised me to stand up for my beliefs and my rights, and to never allow another to victimize me.

oh, and I'm supposed to be removing my person and my belongings from his land as soon as is possible. again. simply because I protested his bellowing of, "SHUT UP MOTHERFUCKER!" in my face.

I'm finally coming to understand that the father I loved is long dead, and that the person calling himself my father is violently dangerous to me.

I need to pack.