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Aug. 2nd, 2004 07:05 pmlooking back, I seem to spend a disproportionate amount of time apologizing. often for a mistake on the part of the person I apologized to.
I’m wondering if I should stop doing that.
I just had my right hand splayed, fingers pointed up, on the left side of my chest. I could feel my pulse strongly about an inch below my collarbone. I’ve never felt it there before. that hollow just to the side of the shoulder bone? it’s very strong there.
I am so tired. I just want to go to sleep and stay that way. I don’t want to die, I just want to stop living.
I’m wondering if I should stop doing that.
I just had my right hand splayed, fingers pointed up, on the left side of my chest. I could feel my pulse strongly about an inch below my collarbone. I’ve never felt it there before. that hollow just to the side of the shoulder bone? it’s very strong there.
I am so tired. I just want to go to sleep and stay that way. I don’t want to die, I just want to stop living.